Honestly…

Honestly - I never wanted to have my "own" band.  Weird.  I didn't want the hassle of finding musicians, of finding time to practice, of trying to coordinate schedules.  I wanted to be part of a group, where we all had a voice, we all were invested, it was "us" against the world.  I don't know if that mentality exists anymore.  Maybe I expected too much?  Maybe I romanticized the notion of what a band is and how it should operate.  I don't mean that a band would never have issue's or that there wouldn't be trials, I guess I just figured it'd be like a brotherhood - and not a bunch of hired hands.  Don't get me wrong, I'm not dogging any of the former and or current members of the GRE3NE fraternity. I've had great guys who've never really given me any problems or reasons to throw my hands in the air (except for the scheduling problems…. but that's par for course).  Maybe it's due to the fact that I'm more of a silent democratic leader… each person has a voice and I want them to share that voice, I want them to have their time in the limelight.  Maybe it was naive of me to think it was possible to work that way.  Maybe I need to be more businesslike in my approach, craft a manifesto and give it to each person who auditions for the band.

Honestly, I think there are more questions than answers.  What do I want this band to be?  What would be our sound??  Do we play strictly original material???  Do we cater to the bars/casino's/hotels and play covers.  Are we dance?  Are we rock??  Are we indie?  Are we alternative???  Do we go acoustic?  Do we go electric?  Social Media??  CD's?? Vinyl??  The more answers I find, the more questions that arise.

Honestly - this is the bottom line.  I don't have all the answers.  There are no formula's to find what makes this music work.  GRE3NE is an ever evolving entity and I'm ok with that.  I'm learning to go with the flow and not stress about it.  Do I have days where I doubt things or struggle with things that are out my control.  YES.  Do I have days of frustration with not music but the music business.  YES YES!!  Do I have days of incredible joy and amazement at how people respond to this music.  YES.  That's really all I can ask for, isn't it??

Honestly…….  

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